Merry Christmas Eve to y’all. I’ve been feeling better these last few days, which probably explains my lack of blogging. Well, that and my internet at home has decided to stop working. I love that. I pay 30 dollars a month for nothing. I’m truly considering switching services to Qwest, even though I’ve heard such terrible things. What’s a boy to do?

In a meeting the other day with my boss, who also happens to be one of my professors, she reminded me of everything I’ve done this semester, which made me start to think of the entire year. It’s been one hell of a 2008. When did the bar of excellence suddenly get placed at the level of graduate work for me as an undergrad who’s also doing University Dance Theatre pieces? I feel like a grad student with a ridiculously busy undergrad’s schedule…this basically equals zero time for anything…or equalled rather. I lost all sense of self this past year, became lost in theory because I had to in order to survive the rigours. I’m not trying to say poor me or anything. I just put myself through a lot of shit, and really for what? I don’t feel any different…maybe smarter? Idk. What do I have to show for it but huge circles under my eyes and no money because I have no time for a job? What do you think will become of me next year? I hope it’s less stressful and more successful? I mean, fuck, I’ve never accomplished more in my life, but I’m only 24. I don’t have to rush to get it all in now. Maybe I’ll write a novel, a collection of short stories, or your papers for you.

One half hour of work and then I’m off for the week. Hopefully I’ll have internet in that time. If not, I’m sure I’ll find some coffee shop or something to post here. My heart, brain, sanity all need it.

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