I’m slowly moving toward a level of happiness. I don’t miss him as much anymore, and I can see him and talk to him without getting overwhelmed. This morning, though, I woke up wishing someone was there. I’m just so exhausted I wish someone could help me take care of my apt, take care of me, take care of the things I don’t really have time for because I’m just so busy with school right now. I think the best thing is I can imagine someone else there, someone close, someone real. I still won’t forget but I won’t get stuck on it.

Today’s one hell of a rehearsal day. I’m going to be at the barker/rarig from 11 to 8 p.m. or so. It’s just so much, and my body is really not handling it very well. Yesterday I caved and bought some tiger balm in hopes that I can get through the week without feeling too much pain. Just get through and then rest rest rest rest rest. Plus, you know, 5 hours a day of dance. 🙂

I need to shower so I can get to rehearsal, but I know I will continue writing later.