so far i don’t like any of this.  not a good start. i think i need to change my mindset. become a non-feeling douchebag. maybe that’s the way to go. i have to hide it all. every second. it’s ok, though. i have too much at stake. 2 days. woh.

i spent the entire day at work writing personalized messages on postcards. i think i have a blister on my thumb. i might need to go to sleep right now. it’d probably be for the best. there are things i wish i were doing that are not this. those things have as little chance of happening as this blog of being good.

time to pass out.